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Questions.

There are things that come up for me that I have to take a breath and really, intentionally look at because the anger and grief can make me want to just throw it all away. So that’s why I’m not in a rush to “settle.” I know there’s a lot of emotion wrapped up in it all for me and I refuse to just push past it to make myself, or others, more comfortable.

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DECONSTRUCTION.

…they don’t like to call it deconstruction, but disorientation. Because no one chooses this. No one chooses to tear apart everything they’ve ever known. No one chooses to uproot community and relationships and defining beliefs out of nowhere. It just…happens.

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HELPER.

I think it very much matters that we look at other humans and not only ask how we can help, but to believe them. Being a helper is not about feeling better or being nice. Being a helper is about laying down ego and setting aside defenses and trying to do what we can to see and fight for the equal humanity in others.

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THE SPACE BETWEEN.

Humanity isn’t black and white. It’s gray. Yes, there ARE people who are closed-minded and hateful and complicit and should absolutely be called out and brought to justice, but there are also people who are TRYING. There are people dealing with their own traumas and undoing. Who are working to learn, and we have GOT to allow space for them.

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WEALTH AND SHAME.

I like things. I want to be wealthy. I want nice things. I want to travel. I like nice clothes. I like nice food. I dream of extensive self care routine with massage and facials and stuff. I want a car with self start so I can warm it up on cold days from inside the house. And I hate it. I absolutely despise that part of myself.

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SEX.

I grew up in purity culture. If you don’t know what that is, God bless you and go forth and enjoy your positive sex life. If you do know what that is, you’ve probably felt the shame associated with it and dealt with the ramifications. Purity culture basically drilled into our heads, SEX IS BAD, SEX DRIVE IS BAD, MASTURBATION IS EVIL, THOUGHTS WILL ROT YOUR BRAIN, YOUR VALUE AND HOLINESS IS IN DIRECT CORRELATION TO YOUR PURITY.

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